I find muscles in me that I didn’t know could hurt.
my legs are like sticks and my arms are spagetthi.
but its all good. this is good pain, a result of Real Physical Work. Not workout though. I do that while working.. now it’s good going to bed knowing that I can feel the things done the past days.
its a good feeling among all this sit-in-front-of-the-computer-and-move-only-my-fingers-days.
two new projects are in the process.
both of them are for out upcoming yout-meeting in Betel on Friday 10th of October (next week). And theese projects are my involvement for that event.
they are so different so its a lot of fun working woth both of them. Me and S are working on project: Alive.. but I won’t tell u moore than that. pictures will come after the event. but I really do enjoy this project as it is something very different from everything else I’ve done this fall. It gives me alot of joy to work with it.
project: free includes more people and lacks a song. but everything will be done in time! it’s also alot of fun as in one way it’s something we haven’t done before.. but the on the other hand we do it all the time.. haha
I hope that I’ll be able to show u something from that project too, but I’m not really shure about it yet.. we’ll see..
but the next upcoming project is the most fun this week. Jesus & Sugarchock tomorrow. a lot of sugary stuff and Jesus! and some teenagers. 
thats gonna be great!!!!
what is the most fun thing for u this week?
I went to church today. I like going to church.
one good thing is that it gathers a lot of people and then its easy to do something after. Like plan the upcoming youthmeeting. I like to plan. Especially with our folks as they are just so hilarious. Some things are very important. others too. and plates with fruit are more important that one would guess and so is a drummer. The best thing is that after a plan everyone knows what to do and so on. And that there are several people willing to serve.
Sundays are good days as people have ”a lot of time to do everything”. so after planning u can lead the people over the other room and while some are washing dishes someone else is making space and others are fixing the sound and everything is ready for a practise. And after that u continue planning everything else that has nothing to do with this particular event but everything to do with all the people who just happen to be gathered at the same place at the same time.
And then suddenly u are sitting there on the steps in the most beautyful autumn-weather realizing that its closer to dinnertime than lunchtime. But its ok as there is no Mr Fox to be seen so u don’t have to hurry back to the fence. You can take ur time to unlock the bike and slowly start ur way home. no need for hurry, no need for stress. with nothing will be solved.
I love coffee and my cups that are colourful yet a little bit ugly. but the size is the bestest for coffee-drinking. for coffee only.
So I’m riding my bike through the city. Its late enough so that I’m almost the only one out except some taxis and someone whose had a little bit of refreshments and the merrily greet me as I pass them by. But it’s not so late that I would have to be in despair. I see the leaves falling from the trees as the breeze is increasing in strength. The fall is here and it’s preparing itself to show its real nature. And I’m waiting. I’m ready for the Rains to come. I can hear the thunder in the distant. It’s like a train on the edge of the town. As the Autumn are to come and they will fill the land with pools of blessings.
I feel so free riding my bike. No hurry and I can just enjoy. My mind is filled with gratitude how my Caretaker ones again heard my silent sighs and we had a wonderful time inside. It’s amazing to see how some cards, singstar or air-hockey can bring so much joy to people’s lives. And they don’t have a clue of how much they gave me when I lost and I got to see the joy of victory on their faces.
But it’s not all victory, it’s not all rejoicing. At the same time we are talking about the ones absent. We know where they are, but because of my presence the truth is avoided. We all know what is going on, but not many dare to say it out loud. Because of me they don’t speak. And it’s fine as I don’t need to hear the words. I see the hopeful eyes that fade away, I see the lonely ones walking around hoping for someone to greet them, I see the boy looking at the girl and how she turns her back to him, I see the ones hiding in the corner not wanting to be disturbed and I surely see the ones who are everywhere all the time. No need for words. It’s all written out there, in everything in everything they do and are. And it all makes me so sad. There must be more than this. I know there is more. Oh if they would only know. If they could only get the Real Stuff at least once and not only some cheap copycat trying to make a substitute for something that can not be replaced. How can they be so living yet so lifeless at the same time?
Sure as gold is precious and honey is sweet, so you love this city and you love these streets. Every man and woman every old and young. Every fathers daughter every mothers son. I feel it in my spirit feel it in my bones. You’re going to send revival bring them all back home.
There must be more than this, oh Breath of God come breath within. There must be more than this, Spirit of God we wait for you.
Come like a rushing wind. Clothe us with power from on high. Now set the captives free and leave us abandoned to your grace.
Consuming fire fan into flame a passion for your name. Spirit of God would you fall in this place?.. Lord let your glory fall.
Fill us anew we pray.
I’m going to work. But first I will go to säästöpörssi and see what colour their spray-paints are. *love*
Then I’ll return some empty bottles and buy juice and something to eat for dinner.
And then, then I’ll get to things I like. put things in their places, find locations for everything and organize small stuff. *love* and then I hope to have time to enjoy a cup of coffee in 5 minutes of silence before we open the door.
Then its gonna be noice, talking, spending time, drinkin coffee, playing air-hockey and singing a song on sing-star. and talking a little bit moore. and kicking away shoes that are in wrong place. and talking again.
I like working where I work. Its a good place and I believe in it. I believe we can make a difference in this city, I believe we can help someone today. I beleive we can meet the young ones on their level, I believe.
Uncan here I come!
I got an email from a friend yesterday. It was a very nice one containing a nice update of her life. she had taken a lookt at my blog and made the conclusion that I’m still sewing (I don’t like that English word as I always mix it up with sow and sue anyways).
That left me thinking. ismy life olny about theese wierd projects I present here??? -no. they just happen to be a easy part of my life to tell u about.
I have chosen to live my life the way I do. I have chosen to dedicate my life Christ and not go back. No one forses me to do anything, but in the way of life that I have chosen there are just things that I for myself need to do.
As I said to our teens today that the choise is yours. U make the coise if u wanna live a mediocre life and u do all the things that are ”normal” in this world and u do ”everything that everyone else does”.. Or then u can choose to step out of that normal gray big mass kind of thing. U can choose to go against the flow. U can choose not to compromise with ur believes. And u need to.
I’d rather live this life that I have with a Purpose in it and a Reson for EverythinG I do.. rather than pleasing people and their ways of thinking and norms and standards. And yes there are people who think I’m crazy and stupid.. but this thing called life is so much bigger than I am and it’s so much moore than what I can ever do.
Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. – 1 Cor 9:25
So I am alive. moore than ever, and I love every moment of my life. the question is are u alive?
Barely surviving has become my purpose, cause I’m so used to living underneath the surface. If I could just see You, everything would be all right. If I’d see You, this darkness would turn to light. (Storm by Lifehouse)
The light has come and lives among us. U just need to see it, and recieve it. Jesus is Alive, and with the Life He gives, your life can start in the Real way. with a purpose deeper and stronger than anything this world could offer.
So the question still is, are u alive?
So we have been working on the costume-project the whole weekend. We are still not done, but we don’t have much left. I can’t show any pictures from Saturday as we were working so intensly that no one had energy to take any pictures. and the charm in everything was gone as there was so much to do.
All of the costumes we make are to skojohoj and the drama we are doing there. As the main character is a dog, it’s kinda natural that all the other characters are animals too.. that’s why we need alot of dogs, cat’s, chiken, hyeenas and other animals…
as we have theese costumes and some pictures of them the result is that the cow and the dog has a msn-conversation haha.
I’m desperately trying to find my floor. it’s not so easy as there is tons and tons and tons of sowing-garbage everywhere… I’ve filled a big bag so far. my chlothes are full of threads and dust and crumbs… and now I’ll go on living whit a mountain of plasticbags on my sofas again
so we did work the whole day yesterday. either with the costumes or planning the youthgroup..
importantly we started out with some coffee and then started to map out the situation and what we would need to buy from the attic this time. both the list of costumes that needed to be done and of material that needed to be bought were long.. and we started working. and we had fun!
We are Masters in using old stuff and making something totally different from them. I think we have cut atleast 5 jackets into pieces so far.. but htis one is actually beautyful and of very good quality. so we don’t dare to use it.. but we can sell it if someone needs a jacket like this. it is very good condition and is very warm. and all the material is ”real stuff”. haha. worth ALOT. we could sell it for 40-50 € haha
At some point we went to entrance A in the House to get the circumference of one who lives there.. at the same time we had to say hello to another one who lives there. that was an experience as Amelie was dressed as an animal and I just laughed.. sometime after that we got some energy given to us through the mail-drop. that’s the blessings of knowing neighbours.
We don’t really know the use of patterns. but sometimes a when being to tired tounderstand what the otherone means a picture comes in handy.
As I don’t own a life-size-try-on-doll one needs to find other solutions. the best is to use u’r friend, but she is working too and to maximize u’r efficiency u don’t wanna disturb her. so u take the chair.. or a stuffed animal or something else 
In the use of all kinds of wierd material u get alot of trash.. and we’ve learned that our tolerans-lever for amount of trash around us is extremly high. but yesterday we met the top of our limits and The Hoover came out. and it surely helped us alot.
I’ve never ever had to put size-labels in the stuff I make. but yesterday I got to do so. When making three pairs of white pants on the same fabric and when all of them are BIG but not the same size they need to be labled. this will help us when the costumes are in use.. as then the actors will easier find their own pants.
And i had hopes for getting my green couch back in use after yesterday. but I was wrong. it’s almost worse now.. and we will continue tonight and finnish what we started. we have a dream. and we surely will fullfill it!
This is the other wall as it is now ready to bring me peace and concentration and motivation. Thanks goes to IKEA for very cheap curtains that I just put up with some needles
Now the next project is the wall on the right from this one.. the one above my bed… I do have some ideas but I don’t know for shure yet. The I still have one remaining wall and this room is done. That one is the most difficult one as it’s the one with the door and the one that I see when I lay in bed.. so it needs to be extra good.
But before those wall-project I want to finnish our animal-costume project for skojohoj. I wanna be able to use my couch again, as it for now has a very important role as keeper of all our material.. but it’s not so practical if one would like sit on it. and I have some fabric for it so it will get a new look also.. but I can’t reach it yet, as u can see. tomorrow wil be hopefully the last make-costumes-day.. so then after that I can clean!!! I really want to this time, as I have tons of thread and stuff like that everywhere. but as tomorrow produces alot more, I haven’t had the inspiration to clean before tomorrow. but after!!
Och i ren protest till att många e glada över att ha fått sydväst (nuvarande Novia) från karis så måst ja ju bara ha min I LOVE KARIS tröja!! haha! dehä blir en bra dag har ja på känn
I’m eating a pineapple. yes a whole one. I’ve never eaten a whole one before all by myself. and this one is perfectly juicy and sweet. There was a time when Monday-nights had their own routines. Hurry to the store and then out to the middle of nowhere to watch ANTM. But not anymore. There is no TV nor interest to put time on that kindof stuff.
Nowdays Mondaynights are all about the food. After having the best time of the whole week at skojohoj its time to bike home and enoy some energy so that the body will rest well. And it’s very important to find the Right food to enjoy on a Monday night. And usually u can not choose what it is on beforehand. U need to be in the store and feel. And then u just know what will make the best out of the perfect day.
So I had my pineapple. It was good. Now I’m totally satisfied and I will go to bed.
Tomorrow I will knit on the train!!
the repeat one song for now. I found it on one of the Hillsong United CD:s and hah, we sang alot on our bushwick-fellowship in newyork. that might be one of the reasons I just listen to it over and over again. and also because it is a very very good song.
I just love our Helga Hund project.
We are forced to think creative and find ways to make humans look like animals.. and for as cheap as possible.. and therefore we’ve fallen in love with one second-hand-store. that has everything u might need for animal costumes. haha. we’ve been there now twice and bought manymany plasticbags of clothes.. and many big jackets. as they have alot of fabric and the fabric is basically for free when compared i u would buy the same amount from a fabric-store.
so yeasterday we made a cow and the tree in paradise in wich the snake will dwell and come forth trying to fool the humans into eating the forbidden fruit. and that project was indeen interesting.
here is Amelie with her tree-vest without it’s snake arms or tree legs or the tree itself.
and this is going to be the tree. u might not see it yet, but its good on it’s way coming. the jacket to the right is just perfect for cutting out leaves from
not too hard to see what this is
I just love kids-ministry!! u get to do all the craziest stuff and people love it! and it’s so fun to prepare when u then see u’r audience following u’r every moove and sound. it’s so interesting to see how much just some small costumes can do. everything comes alive and it’s much easier to play a dog/cow/cat/snake when u actually look like one.
and the kids they don’t see that the colours don’t really match. they don’t care that the cow’s horns are a bit big and that one costumes i waaay to big. they have the imagination still working and they get along in the story and just follow it.
and the fun part is that all the time it takes to make theese costumes doesn’t seem like anything. it feels just so normal to do this and it feels like it’s ones responsibility. anything to get the Word out there and to know that there are kids who have heard of their Heavenly Father. that is the most precious thing in the whole wide world.
It’s our responsybility to take care of the next generation. it’s our responsibility to help them find the Truths in Life and to help them Live so that they’ll grow up to decent people who care of their neighbors and make a difference in their surroundings. if we as older people don’t give the younger one tools for a good life how can we them blame them for doing alot of bad things?
what if that ”bad” they do is all they’ve ever learned of? what if that’s the only they’ve ever seen the older ones do and they just copy what they see?
but who will tell them that the bad is not the only way?
who will tell them that there is moore to life than what they eye can see?
who will show them a other way of life that is much richer and filled fith more satisfaction and joy that imagination could ever think of?
I will. and I hope that I’m not the only one. and if it takes for me to make a couple of costumes then let it. thats a small price to pay. or no, itäs not even a price. it’s my priviledge.
yesterday was the bestest day in a long time again. if u understand swedish u can read about it on Amelies blog. if u can look at pictures u find them there too.
after sleeping for a couple of hours it’s time to go on again. this time it’s work that actually pays something. all though I don’t take it as work. it’s just fun. especially today. moore later as my ride comes veryvery soon.
I just love my life as there is so many things that I just LOVE doing. and yeah. even school is nice, as it’s gonna over soon. THAT motivates me!!!
have a great Saturday u all!
I was searching for a specific song from Carman on Youtube when I found this. haha. this is so old.. but back in the days we had a dance to this song and I have never seen the actual video for it.. I know the quality is youtube.. but whatever. the song is a pearl for me. and I don’t know if it’s fun or scary that I could remember almost all of our dancemooves to this song…
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